What, Who, Where?

Wow, I Love God.  He has such a way of touching each of our lives.  I found a Great church in Longmont, and got to attend this weekend.  The verse was on Heb 13: 1-2.  Saying that we are to Love strangers and envite them in.  Its a hard thing to do it can be scarry at times, but its something that God wants us to focus on.  How does it look for a Christian to turn somebody away  that is looking for something.  Maybe, its the Lord that has directed them to you.  Maybe, there looking for Christ. I cant wait to see what God has planned for me tonight.

Twas the day before Christmas

Twas the day before Christmas, I had dinner with a great friend Amber, the other night, and got to meet her Husband Williams.  That guy rocks.  I'm so grateful for all the friends that God has placed in my life.  Both Amber and Willams had given me great advice concerning Caroline.  I have herd it many time from other people that I trust, but I guess that I needed to here it one last time.  That was to stop dwelling on her! It is a hard thing to get over but I think its something that will make me stronger.  I look forward to what God has planned for me.  I know there is somebody out there for me and God is getting her ready for me and I for her.  Happy Christmas!!!  Thank You Lord for your Son.

I'm just chilling her at the SB.  I'm wondering what the heck is this thing called life is.  We work to get things what ever that is , and then loose them.  I lost a big part of my life when Caroline decided to break everything off.  Damn, that was a blind side.  I'm still recovering,  I see pictures of her in everything of mine.  Even Hunter.  I know how much she Love's that cat.  Hunter has been through so much with me over the years.  I thank God daily for the gift that is Hunter.  I just hope that I can make the right choices now that I'm back in Colorado.  I want so many different things that, for the most part not good for me.  But what am I to do?  I have need too, just like everybody else.  I need to be loved and to be herd.  I need to company that only the nights sky can offer.  I feel like I'm like everybody else.  But, I know that I'm different and in that special.  Not little yellow bus special.  (Not that lucky) but I hope that I know what I mean.  Let alone who ever reads this.  Why is it so hard to find a woman the is as passionate about me as I am about her?  I think that there is somebody out there for every person, but sometimes I wonder if I'm the exception.  I feel like I'm a drifter and I'm just passing by.  In the larger picture I guess that's true and we are all just passing through, but damn it I want somebody to help with the passing of the time that I'm here on the earth.  I thought twice that I had found that person, on the first swing I was WAY off.  Nuts that one.  Then the other, I thought that there was really something there.  I might be dwelling on the whole thing, but is that not part of the process?  A larger part of me still prays for her and wishes the best, and the other littler part is still bitter.  I think its that way for the rest of the time...  I care too much for those that I love..  I've asked my self if I should be more like an ass, but People have told me not.  I hope that I can find something to help me be motivated to get through nursing school..  Man do I ramble or what.....

Am I home now?

Things are getting better now.  I'm living in the basement of two great friends in Longmont and working again in Denver.  I hope to stay there for the winter,( moving in the snow sucks) or till they give me the boot.  I hope that I can save enough cash for the bill collectors.  I have high hopes for CO living.  I think that God is directing me back here for a reason.  Of which I haven't a clue.  I will see.  I am happy I am working @ Mile Hi again, I hope I can keep my head with all the BS that goes on around the whole Transportation thing.

Work Jacked

Dang, work through me for a terrible loop.  They sent me to Mexico!! or close enough, TJ.  Scary night in the bunk for sure.  Didn't get robbed of accosted,  thank God.  

Sitting in SB again in Ontario, CA. waiting on a load.(trucker term for work)

Sunday

Work has taken me out to NM and I just sit waiting for a load.  I'm ready to work and God knows that I need it, but I'm kinda in a holding patern.  I'm cool with that for now, I've just got to ride the tides of this depression.  It kinda makes me loopie.  But, all is going well, I have coffee.

The moving of my life. Take Two

Once you think you have found where you belong, how do you move on from that place once you have been turned away from it?

If the world has been given to someone is there anything left for your self,  I still think there is still parts of my heart remaining,  or else I would have died.   

My thoughts and heart moves and is drawn in by the music all around me.  I find release, comfort  in all that.